I’m really starting to hate myself… seriously. Why can’t I just keep myself occupied 24/7!? I mean, goshhh, I think/talk about him all the time; and because of that I just get so sad. Everything reminds me of him. Everywhere I go -my house, menominee itself reminds me of him, and my aunt’s house. (And my aunt’s house used to be a place where I can go and just forget because it’s an hour away and just far away… but I brought him here so now, that’s ruined.) Every song I listen to -even fast ones. Even my laptop reminds me of him… 
Grr, I really didn’t think it can be this hard.
Or am I just overreacting? (Over thinking things?) I want to stop but really… I can’t. It’s like once I get on my own, in my own little world, it’s all him that’s in it. And to tell you the truth, it hurts… Just thinking about not seeing him for the longest time sucks. Sucks too that I don’t have a phone so I can’t contact him whatsoever. Its like I don’t know what to do, but wait…
I just really hope he wants this as much as I do. (To be in this relationship *long distance* I mean.) I’m just gonna suck it up for now I suppose. <3
PS: I forgot to mention… at the picnic, everyone was asking me, “Where’s your bf?” And of course I have to answer, “He left for college yesterday.” Then they go, “Awww, what’s he majoring in?” Or “Where’s he going?” Or “When are you guys gonna see each other again?” // And all that… I probably had that same conversation with at least 7 people today at the picnic. My gosh…
- Posted by Char at 10:00 pm
- Permalink for this entry
- Filed under: love love, night posts, omg!, personal
- RSS comments feed of this entry
- TrackBack URI
- 203 views
=[ aww, i can honestly say, i no how you feel.
but..instead of being hours away from my bf, i was
thousands of miles away.. in europe.
and i was like how u are now... but really..
your not gona stop thinking bout him..hes always gona
be in ur head,... but it does get easier..
so just keep your head up, and keep smiling.
it'll all get better =]
xKRiSTiNE;
awww charm ang lungkot naman nyan huhu i can relate kasi nasa LDR din ako ngayon and there are times na napaparanoid pa ko pag hindi nag text sakin kaya nakaka relate ako sobra haaayyyyy ang lungkot naman huhu
Its nothing wrong with being dangerously crazy in love. When I’m not with my man I think about him alot just don’t go into the relationship with your eyes wide shut.
What’s the countdown for? going away to school I suppose
Hi! I’m not sure if i knew you or not, and if i did, then hopefully you remember me. This is Andrea from peach-blush.org and escapemb.org… My sites arent up anymore… I was just wondering though, why is my message board back open?
aww char baby, I know separation is hard but it will get better i know it. Once school starts for you you’ll not even have time to think about it either. Besides, he’ll still come home to visit and things on breaks and weekends right? stay strong, i know you can.
Awwwwwwww
I know it must be so hard….I can only imagine being away from my boyfreind for that long and it makes me really sad. You’re being very strong and you’re definitely not overreacting. I actually think you’re taking it very well.
I’m SURE that he wants it as much as you do. He loves you!
And you love him…which is why you’re feeling like that. But it will get a lot easier.
I’m sure he’s thinking about you and missing you just as much.
And just imagine! When you get to see him…sparks are gonna fly!!! You guys are gonna be so happy!!!!!
You guys have a good relationship and I can tell that you love each other very much, so trust me…everything will be okay.
Hope you’re feeling better girly <3
aw you are so adorable lol i honestly believe you & him were meant for each other. don’t stress all of these hardships. you know you two make it through EVERYTHING. that’s exactly how I know you guys are meant for each other. aw baby sis ♥ i loves you! hehe. are you excited about school? you are going to do amazing, i know you are.