Any who… so on my way back from Mascar. I don’t know but I was thinking… “That was weird that I went to eat by myself…” I haven’t done that in like forever. It’s not that I don’t like it, but… I don’t know. I guess what I’m saying is, I always get these moments when I just feel totally alone. Sometimes it gets to a point that I just want to cry. Like on my way back to my dorm from Mascar… (it’s like a 5+ minute walk) I was just admiring the snow. Then like I just got sad and started remembering my family.

Hmm… I guess I just miss them a lot. (Like right now) It’s like I don’t wanna live at home, that’s why I left and came here… but now it’s like I really want to go back. I miss my old life. I haven’t talked to my parents for weeks now…. I miss them. A lot. (Though we don’t get along all the time… I still love them you know?) I miss my friends too, specially my boyfriend. (Though I talk to them all the time… it’s totally different having them by my side.)

You know what I’ve noticed?… I was completely fine when I came here to Ferris. But then after all those “visits” from my friends and family… that’s when I started missing them. You know what I mean? Because for me, it’s like I came to a new place… where nothing reminds me of them. But now,.. that they all came here… it left memories; and it just makes me miss them a hell of a lot more! (I hope I’m making sense.)

Ahh, I love college. But it’s like.. it steals away the people you love and care about. It even steals from myself. (I’m so busy and exhausted most of the time…) I hate it.

Today, I just -I don’t even know- Ahhhh. I mean Kristi thought I was pissed off/sad earlier, though I’m not. I guess I was just like in this mood where “nothing matters”!? All day today… I just wanted to lay down and talk to Tom. (So I can feel better)… It almost happened. But he was busy. (Like usual) So, I give up on that. I’m doing the “lay down” part right now though.

Tomorrow hopefully will be a better day… Ahhh, I just feel so sad right now. (Like something’s missing… a lot of things…) Goodnight everyone. <3

But anyways, so hmm here are the highlights I suppose.
So, the last time I blogged was 10-31 (Halloween); and that’s when I was waiting for Tom to get here. hehe, well Tom didn’t get here until probably around 10pm? Then we headed to GVSU to see his older brother… we were there ’til Saturday afternoon. (November 1st was my little brother’s 12th birthday by the way!!!) Then we just went back to Ferris. Tom was here until November 2nd.

11-10 was Tom’s 19th birthday. I didn’t get to see him though, which totally upset me but I did get to greet him right on this birthday… Also, damn… that week was so stressful!!! So much projects to do!!! So yup, all I’ve been doing is SCHOOL work!!! I love it but I don’t at the same time.. arghhhh, idk.

11-13 until 11-16, last weekend I went up north to MTU to see Tom. Ohh, it was a lot of fun!! I miss him already hehe. I love him. It was a really really good weekend. –I get to see him again this Friday because that’s when his Thanksgiving break start, so he’s driving down here and staying with me until I get out for my break; which will be on the 25th, and that’s when we both head back to Menominee. hehe, I really can’t wait to see him. I miss him so much already. Ahhh, I love that kid.

- Goodnight everyone, Take care!
Movies I’ve seen this month: Quarantine, Saw V, Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2, Another Cinderella Story, Dejavu, Surfs Up, National Lampoon’s Gold Diggers, Get Shorty, and Role Models.

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hold on a second…

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okayyyy so this post is haha… IdK!!!!

go see the FIRST COMMENT!

That’s where my blog is lol the video

alright loves

mwah,

happy halloween :D

Other than that, I checked my mail today and my loans got approved for 2nd Semester. YAY! Now I just gotta finish the rest of the paper work. Argh, I’m so broke… you have no idea! (I’d ask my parents for more money but I haven’t… so yeah) Ughhh, I need a credit card of my own instead of always using my mother’s… LOL So hopefully I get all that done by next Friday. (I really wanna see Tom, so I need money for gas and shit… fuckkkk I’m so broke at the moment.) –I might need to call my mother or aunt and ask for money… FUCK; I hate doing that!!! But I definitely GOTTA though… grrrr!!!

Alright well I gotta finish getting ready for today and start working on a slideshow for my Design class. Take care everyone!

PS: I saw High School Musical 3 last night, and it’s sooo cute! (Definitely reminded me of my Senior year in High School… lol I cried a couple of times) Awwww. lol

He said to me, “Why do you give up so easily?” -Because he was just gonna hitch a ride from his friend David who’s going to CMU (which is an hour away from me) and well, he wants me to get him from CMU to bring him to FSU. Problem is, wtf!? I don’t have a car!? and No one can give me a ride there.. So… what am I suppose to do? I asked everyone that I could.. and no one can. (So I said… “Guess you’re not coming…”) –That’s when he said, “Why do you give up so easily?”…

Hmmm, really though.. what can I do? (Nothing!?) He’s the one with the car, but he doesn’t want to drive here. It’s not like I’m not trying… -but look at him, he DOESN’T want to drive here.. so really he’s the one that’s not trying right?… I mean, I went and visited him twice now, as for him. He only came down here once….Oh whatever. I’m just totally bummed out. If I don’t see him this weekend… I don’t know.

I guess I won’t be seeing him until Thanksgiving break… when I go home.

I asked him to come up here next weekend (for Halloween) and he said he’s not going to unless someone else is driving. So really, he’s not coming. Whatever, I guess I’m not worth the drive anymore…

Well anyways, #1: so there’s 57 registered users on my website. (Who can view all my private entries and the downloads page.) Well, I’m not really sure who those people are or if they even come here that often to visit or if they have even edited their profiles (like I stated to do after registering in the register page). So I decided that I’m going to be e-mailing everyone who is registered. So if you’re registered to Oh-Doll.Net, expect an e-mail from me.

#2: I don’t really know when I’ll have time to make a new theme for Oh-Doll.Net but hopefully pretty soon! I want to keep this theme but just change it up a bit. (I really love the format of this layout -for it’s simple… and I haven’t really seen any other out there that really caught my attention.) hehehe

#3: hehe, so before… I’ve made Sony Ericsson w20a cellphone themes. And I’d like to share them with everyone. (So that’ll be added onto the downloads page.) And I have a shit ton of cell phone wallpapers… so that’ll be up there too. hehe

Alright, well that’s about it for now. Take care lovelies!

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Goodnight

Any who, this weekend is Ferris’ Homecoming -meaning TONS of parties!!! (I already got invited to like 5 parties… lol) It’s also Central and Western week (2 different colleges/universities near Ferris). Well sadly, I will not be making it to any of these. Because… I decided to go home this weekend! It’s the M&M Game and Homecoming at my hometown! (So it should be pretty fun!) Plus, I haven’t been home yet this year; and I miss my house… oooo!!! And Tom’s going home too this weekend so I get to see him. YAYNESS!!! I’m pretty excited but at the same time totally bummed out -because I’ll be missing out on so much here @ Ferris. *huhu*

Oh well right? There’s always next year, lol. Alright well I shall get going for now, I’m leaving today to head up north (8 hr drive) around 3:30pm. I’ll be staying at my aunt’s house tonight, then tomorrow morning my dad is picking me up. hehe -I have my weekend all planned out pretty much. Well mmk my dahhlings!!! Love yaas and take care.

Anyways, since we were forced to go to her art show we do NOT have to go to her 3pm-450pm class! So now, I don’t have class until 6pm-6:50pm. ehehehe Woot woot! –As for the meantime, I’m just browsing around… After writing this entry, I’m going to finish up my logos in Adobe Illustrator and maybe work on a new theme for this site. (It really needs a new one NOW! lol)

Hmm, what else… OHH!!!! Pink Secrets commented…
[[hello, I have already removed the image, and with the games is worth it and you also remove your post by saying that I copied, and the insults you by the guards.]]
And my reply to this: Umm… what??? Well, if that says that you want me to delete my previous post about you stealing, I’m sorry.. that’s not gonna happen. Sorry dahhlin!